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So Much To Say…

Well, there is so much to write about and I need to be in bed in…oh dear…I need to have *been* in bed 13 minutes ago. Oops. Anyway, I just have to give the Lord thanks on this semi-public forum–

Yesterday he had an accident at GE; he was welding or cutting some steel, which was on a forklift, and a 500 lb piece of steel became unbalanced and fell from about 10 feet and hit him on the head. He was rushed to the hospital and we didn’t know what was happening except that he was talking and conscious, but didn’t know if it was a life threatening situation or not. Within about 30 minutes we found out it was not…and within about 3 hours, we were so blessed to find out that he didn’t have any broken bones or internal bleeding, just a deep gash. A friend of my mom’s had a word from the Lord before any of this information had come in (my mom had called and asked her to pray at a time when all we knew is that he had been rushed to the hospital). The word was, “It’s okay, I sent my angels to soften the blow to his head.” She did not know he had been hit in the head, none of us did at that time. But this is exactly what had happened. It was truly a miracle that he wasn’t crushed or killed! We are in awe and so thankful for the Lord’s protection, and we realize a little better, too, that God protects us from tragedy all of the time.
On another note, very randomly from this story, please pray for my little family! We really feel like God wants to do something new in and with us. We are seeking Him and studying Isaiah 58; that’s the passage Jack preached from the evening he proposed, and it still fits the life we want to lead. I don’t think we lead that life nearly as much or how I imagined, but we are putting ourselves in a posture to hear from the Lord. If that means we stay here and adopt more children, I would love that. If that means we go to a different mission field, that would be really great as well. Jack really would like to have, I guess I should even say needs, a new job; I, personally, am content here as I’m homeschooling and getting involved in some adoption groups, singing again, etc. But either way, discontent with a job or content with life here, that isn’t reason to stay or go or whatever! We just want to know what the Lord wants. We want to hear His voice, His still small voice. Pray for us as we set aside time and availability to hear Him.
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Last Christmas

I’m kinda thinking about not decorating this year for Christmas. For no reason except that I feel like I am always moving stuff around and cleaning and…yeah, that’s not a good reason. Here are some pictures from last Christmas to maybe get me in the mood. Thought I’d reminisce (that was Word Girl’s word of the day today)!



So we’ll see. 🙂
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Necessities?

I have a strong desire to live simply and for the most part, in a lot of my natural inclinations as well as actions, I do that. I do it for many reasons–some to be frugal, some to be more thankful for what I have, and some so that I can give more money to things other than me and those around me that already have basically everything a human could and should want!

Anyway though, my dear Mother who also lives simply and much more generously, said to me, “Lyn, I’m always buying stuff like shoes, tights, whatever the kids need. Do you and Jack need anything? If so, go get it and I’ll pay you back.” I wrote her back, “oh gosh, no, I don’t need anything.” But then I got to thinking about it…it was kind of like a door I never open…or rarely anyway. And so here’s what I’ve ended up with.
Dress socks. Oh my goodness, I have never had a pair of dress socks in my life and rarely have I needed them, or so I thought. My, my shoes fit a lot nicer with dress socks. Ha! And glaring white doesn’t stick out above my shoe when I cross a leg. 🙂 I got a pair of sandals so that I can chuck ALL my flip flops. I’m in my 30’s. I LOVE flip flops but the $3 variety has been hurting my back. They are brown and you will see them on my feet pretty much every day between May and October next year, unless I’m barefoot, which is even better. I also got a pair of warm fuzzy clogs that will make the winter truly more bearable. Oh, and some new underwear! I guess I did need some stuff, Mom.
Truly these things aren’t necessities and I know it. Through my years of this journey of wanting to live in equality with the least of these, which OBVIOUSLY isn’t happening, I have grown and learned and am not finished at all. In the process I’ve had to budge a little and find a balance so that my family doesn’t go berserk. It’s still on my heart though to absolutely revolt against the system of this world, or maybe just this country, because while I am grateful for what I have, I can’t forget how weird it is that people all over the planet don’t even have shelter and food. I’m not that smart, I’m not proposing that I know how to fix it, and I can’t even point to what we’re doing wrong. But somehow it’s just wrong, simply because of the result of it. So, my blog is taking a downward turn right now–sorry about that!–but this is me, living in the middle of this thankfulness for my new pack of underwear and also wanting to lead a revolution for equality and seeing to it that WE will not be guilty of having too much while others have too little. Oh, Jesus, show us how to live out Your Kingdom here and if we’re in too deep to be able to see our way out, shine a great big light!!!
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One of the Best Days of My Life!

On Sunday, we celebrated. Whoa, did we celebrate! Eight people were baptized in our churches (I say churches because it was a joint service between Open House and The Bridge Community, both of which I dearly love). It meant so much to me for several reasons. Let me go ahead and count the ways…

1. Our daughter Selah decided to follow Jesus and was baptized! YAY! I have seen her grow so much while we have been homeschooling. Quantity time is her main love language, and I have seen her flourish under that in ways I couldn’t have predicted. Also with the quantity time of homeschooling/not being busy outside of our home very much, we put our hearts and minds, therefore our attention and schedules, to spending time with the Lord. Since praying to receive Christ, she has quiet times and reads her Bible, as well as all the conversations, worship times, and Bible we do together. She shared her testimony (reading off of Post-It notes!) from the baptismal and it was just wonderful. The public thing wasn’t the best way for her to show me that she gets it though; she topped it a couple hours later. We were laying on the bed together taking a short nap and she said, “Mom, sometimes in my quiet time, I say to Jesus, ‘The precious blood, the precious blood. I know that’s gross, but it’s like a newborn baby, it comes out all gross, but it’s beautiful and wonderful.'” It’s all about the blood covering Jesus offers to us. There is so much more as she grows that she will understand and she will rededicate her life (I hope) a million times, because I certainly do…but she knew she needed Jesus to forgive her of her sins and she has yielded her life, attitude, wants, decisions, to Him. Every year that will evolve into more she is offering to Him, I pray. And in the same regard, every year will bring more that she can receive from Him!!!
2. My friend Loren was baptized and I got to share her testimony for her! She was a little shy to talk in front of everyone. I’m so excited and proud of her. She rededicated her life to the Lord just a couple of weeks ago in our small group; we walked through the Romans Road together because even though she has always believed in Jesus, which truly is enough, she had never had a specific time in her life where she called on Him and officially confessed with her mouth that He is her Lord and Savior. We called it her ammunition against Satan, who was causing her to question her salvation. Now she has a date where she made a profession and was baptized, and BY FAITH in God’s Word, we know that the covenant has been made. As Selah said, “Our relationship with Jesus is like a knot that cannot be untied.” Loren has made the decision to turn from specific sin that used to be in her life and live for the Lord, whatever He calls her to do. We will continue walking together and I’m excited about the younger Christian friends she is making. If anyone needs a girls college age small group in E-town, we have one!
3. It was one of the best days of my life because of what God taught me through the book I wrote about last week, Choosing to SEE by Mary Beth Chapman. Her perspective on death, burial, and resurrection is life giving and hope filled. She describes someone dying and being buried as a seed being planted into the ground, and how when Jesus returns, our bodies will be raised imperishable–we will bloom and live with Him and each other forever. We are in winter now, in so many ways…but spring is coming. Jesus is going to come back, just as surely as Jesus Himself beat death and rose from the grave. We are in winter right now, in death or at least a deep freeze, in a time of waiting, a time of advent, kind of like the gap between Malachi and Matthew…As much of a positive and happy person as I am because of the joy of the Lord I cannot escape and don’t want to escape the reality of the brutal world as it is right now. This is the season we’re in. We have to make sense of it Biblically to the best of our ability. And part of that making sense of it is knowing that when we are “buried with Him in baptism”, we die to our worldly way of viewing life in the flesh and we are “raised to walk in newness of life”, meaning that now we are alive to the spirit. Our Life becomes hidden with Christ in God. Our life (lower case l on purpose) is what it is, and God is surely reigning over those details as well, but our Life (upper case!) is of the spirit, it’s all about what we can’t see. Therefore, yes, we need food to keep our bodies alive, and yes, God has things for our bodies to accomplish on this earth, but our spiritual life needs to be kept alive and our body’s accomplishments will flow naturally without toil as our spiritual walk is our focus. We must be more attentive to the spirit than the flesh, and in that focus, both will thrive! In Heaven, we are spirit. To prepare for that, we must live as much in the spirit as possible.
Do I know what I’m talking about? Not totally! 🙂 But praise the Lord for His Spirit that takes us deeper daily, as deep as we will choose to go.
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Mary Beth’s Book

Before I hand it back to my friend, I wanted to make sure I didn’t miss writing about Mary Beth Chapman’s book, Choosing To SEE. I picked it up and like any great book, I could not put it down. I think I read most of it standing up even, before I realized I was hooked and gave in to the cozy chair in my dining room.

Mary Beth and her husband, Steven Curtis, who I’m sure you’ve heard of if you’ve ever listened to a Christian radio station in your life, have lived through an incredible journey. She tells briefly of her life–marrying, seeing his career take off, having 3 children, and then adopting 3 little girls from China. Those stories are inspiring and I love their heart for adoption. Reading this book made me want to adopt again regardless of several sensible reasons I have to not adopt again, at least not at this time. They have also started two ministries, one of which personally affected our family. I’ll never forget the day I got the letter saying we were receiving a HUGE grant for our adoption in 2008 from Shaohannah’s Hope! This ministry helps Christians adopt, since finances are often an issue. Their other ministry is Maria’s Big House, which is a home to many babies and children in China who have severe special needs and may never be adopted. (Just as a side note, I am learning that with governments slowing down what was already a slow process in regard to international adoptions, working with ministries who are on the ground in these countries helping orphans who will never be adopted is an extremely valuable ministry. I love that we grew our family through adoption and would do it again in a heartbeat, but sponsoring children, visiting them, and supporting ministries like the Chapmans have birthed, may be the path my fire is going to take…but I still want to be a mommy to more of them as well!)
So, the second half of the book is about the last 3 years of the Chapman’s lives, and those are the most painful years and the most painful pages. She describes the days surrounding their daughter Maria’s death; how this “sweet and sticky” 5 year old left this earth to meet Jesus; and what the Lord has done in this family’s life since that tragic day that changed their whole world. Mary Beth talks about the community that surrounded them, that was an amazing picture painted. Something that really gripped me was that in their grief and loss, they really had to decide if they believed…if they believed in the reality of Heaven, if all this Jesus stuff was TRUE or not. Because if it was true, then yes, they could grieve with hope. They couldn’t get stuck (and they didn’t) in the place of “why”; they were so mature and humble to not stay there! Their hope was not in being able to ever understand. Their hope was set on the truth of the gospel, that Jesus was with Maria and that they would all be together again someday when this short life is over.
There are some miraculous events that happened to them as encouragements from the Lord. Little things that were just sweet of Him. One of my best friends has said to me after a tragic event in her life: “The Lord has been so sweet to me this week.” It takes a lot of faith and humility before the Lord to say this, and these fellow sufferers have that in common. Suffering really does make us come face to face with what we believe, and face to face, eye to eye, with our Savior. None of us would choose suffering, but it’s worth it…ouch…that hurts to even say that, but I know its true. He really has overcome the world, this world He promised would be full of trouble. The great news is that when we are surrendered to Him and not holding on to our way and our wants anymore, it is a win-win situation. Earth, Heaven, life, death. In all four, we have Jesus, if He is our everything. I believe this perspective is the key that so many believers carry–all around the world Christians are living in unimaginable realities, and have the peace of Christ.
The last thing I was left with:
The Chapmans believe that God has entrusted them with “hard” and they feel it is their responsibility to steward it well. That is astounding. And true. And a new thought to me! It is making me think in those terms…”What have I been entrusted with? How can I steward it well as unto the Lord?” This story is an ugly thing for their teenage son, Will, who was driving the car that hit Maria, to learn how to steward well. I’m sure he is saying, “Anything else, Lord, anything, but not this!” So, the seemingly good (talents, skills, spiritual gifts), the seemingly bad (our pasts, weaknesses, even sins we keep fighting), the seemingly pointless (difficulties or disabilities we personally face in relationships or jobs, stuff that is happening with our kids that we are just trying to get through), and even the seemingly ridiculous (quirks and weird stuff that God deposited in us that makes us us) are things we have been entrusted with and must decide to and learn to be good stewards of. No skeletons in no closets, friends! Nothing unusable. Hmm…
I recommend reading the book, even though it brought on a couple of speechless days and dream filled nights. While she tells the whole story of the accident, she doesn’t dwell on that; she moves quickly and intently through the rest of the story. Anyone who has grieved will gain insight into their own pain through reading this book and those of us that have not experienced anything of this sort can truly benefit as well! I’ve said for a long time (as Martha Kilpatrick’s personal puppet) that we MUST develop a theology for suffering! It’s here and it’s not going away; what does it mean and what do we do with it? This book shows a family who has developed their theology for suffering and millions are growing stronger in their faith as they steward their story well.
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Ah…Breathing Again

I have no idea what I have learned from the past two or three weeks. It’s just been weird and a blur and I would like to be able to say that I handled it well. Instead, I’m exhausted and just now beginning to resurface.

Okay, that may be a little overdramatic! But I am honest in saying that I have to look at my calendar to remember what happened!
So…it all started in an effort to be open minded. That was my first mistake, haha. Jack and I love the idea of moving and starting fresh somewhere; we love the idea of doing a ministry together; we are dreamers and adventurers and sometimes you get tired of talking and you say, “Let’s do it! Why not now?”
We have looked at a couple opportunities, which interviews went pretty far, only to spend weeks praying, journaling, discussing until we’re sick of talking, making pros and cons lists, and even making some preparations to move, seemingly for nothing. I had a hard time sleeping and my biggest regret is I had a hard time connecting with the Lord. I felt chaotic inside as these decisions were being worked through and I hated it; yet I wanted to be open minded enough to consider these changes, because they were opportunities that I really could see us doing someday and we both are kind of looking for a change. I couldn’t say: “God is telling us to do this.” But I shy away from saying that like I used to. Did God tell me to do Sister Bridge or make this CD? I don’t know! I prayed for years about these things and the desire didn’t leave and the opportunity came. Same with adoption, homeschooling, and many other things I’ve committed to.
So I’m breathing again because of the two things I was able to articulate with some of my students today with their help (the adult ones, haha! I don’t usually verbally process to my elementary age piano kids!)
#1 I feel like I have come to the conclusion that I am not ready for a season change, that God is not asking me for a season change yet. Pursuing Him, focusing on my marriage and kids and home, is truly a full time job. I wasn’t looking for more, and when “more” came knocking, it was not necessarily tempting, it was just that I wanted to make sure I wasn’t being closed minded if it was the Lord. But I think, THINK, that God is saying if we move it needs to be for Jack’s job/calling, not mine, because mine is non-negotiable right now. As much as I love missions, adoption, worship leading, singing/songwriting, etc., I can only do those things so much as they take their place in priority well under those other things I mentioned. I feel a peace in my spirit about that and am going with it!
#2 If I am wrong and I am just throwing away opportunities to do some neat stuff where the Lord would work past my limits and through my weaknesses, which I know for sure He CAN do, then I will simply miss out. I am choosing to take that risk. I know He sees my heart and my motives are pure, to the best of my knowledge. If I can’t handle what other women handle in their schedules or hearts or minds, who cares? I have to live by MY limits, meaning when I get to the place where I am missing HIM in the fullness I could have Him in, and I am missing my husband and kids in the fullness I could offer to them, which happens to me often, then I have to take a big step back and make sure I am being faithful to the calling I have received. So, all that to say, I may be missing the mark big time, but if I am, I am doing it for Him. I just can’t take the risk of missing what matters most.
It bothers me that during these days of decision making, I felt so distant and dizzy. Surely God didn’t want me looking at anything or anyone but Him during these days…but I just couldn’t think or see straight. Hope God has mercy on my pitiful self when I really do have to make a big life change! 🙂
But for the time being, whether we move or not is uncertain, but I do know I am not open to anything that would feel like it was a stumbling block to that which I refuse to lose in the shuffle. I heard the quote somewhere that when your priorities are clear, your decisions are easy. Wish I would have remembered that 2 weeks ago.
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Breathing Out Gratefulness Today

I am truly breathing out gratefulness today. I have a blurry mind full of bits and pieces of images, words, and feelings, but it’s all good. I’m thinking about how girls in Bible study last night said that beauty is defined to them as “inner peace in the midst of chaos”, that huge smile Yemi gave me when she turned around in her stroller to look at me today, and the wonderful feeling of my soft blankets which I crashed in just a bit ago!

It crosses my mind often: I live a charmed life! It is so cool to be able to like what you have and love where you are and what you’re doing. I am obviously so blessed to have 2 healthy and radiant daughters, much more energy and health than I have had in years, a wonderful and supportive extended family, my dear husband, and the list truly does go on. But it does occur to me that there have been plenty of seasons of life where I had lots of beautiful God gifts in my life but still was hoping for one thing more, one something more.
I am just breathing out gratefulness today because God has given me the grace and peace to live MY life, which means to me that I am accepting and trying to give my best to what He has clearly put in my lap. I’m not looking for more, and I am not searching for my importance by finding more to invest in. Maybe you’ve always been there, but little Miss Overachiever here did not always know that peace and rest in my soul. What’s really neat, too, is that as knowing Jesus takes first place in what I really care about, a relaxation settles in about the other things I am called to do. It’s not that those things (singing, making the CD, Sister Bridge, being a mom and wife) aren’t important or that I don’t care about them, it’s just I realize they are not MINE. They really are God’s and for His sake. When we aren’t concerned about our legacy or reputation anymore, the floodgates of freedom really do open wide! Freedom to just want Him, not get “our panties in a wad” about things, even good God things, and freedom to let Him do what He wants through us as our eyes are elsewhere…
Maybe it’s kind of like baseball. I never was good at hitting the ball. When people said, “Keep your eye on the ball”, I really wanted to hit them instead of the ball. ARGH! I mean, what does that mean??? Anyway, supposedly if you had your eye only on the ball, you could trust that your arms and the bat and whatever must move to hit the ball would swing around and do its job naturally. But your attention needed to be solely on that ball. Not on your arms or the bat. Same with Jesus. When our goal is to seek His face and know Him better every day, everything else falls into place. I am learning to not keep track or look at what I’m “doing for the Lord”. I can hardly stand to even write those words because it’s just not like that anymore, thank the Lord! I get far too impressed with myself, or far too upset with myself, and God wants our attention on Him, not ourselves. I’d really like to go through life oblivious and unaware, trusting that as I continually am emptied of myself (sin, opinions, hardheaded ways) and then filled with Him in a living and genuine way, that HE will have freedom to use my life (and I don’t have to know about it.)
Well, thanks for reading…More from Creative Counterpart by Linda Dillow next. It is such a good book about being the wife God is calling me to be. 🙂
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Sister Bridge

There are several things that I really love and it is super fun and exciting when those things collide. Sister Bridge is a collision of many favorites: I love the nations and missions, I love beautiful material, purses, natural looking jewelry, and quilts, and I love sisters in Christ standing together and helping one another out!

There are such amazing ministries and devoted missionaries out there who are living among the poor, the least of these, widows, and orphans. I love sponsorship, adoption, and mission trips…but there’s always need, therefore there’s always more room for great ideas! And I’ve had the desire for a long time to be a representative or “middle-woman” you could say between these ministries/missionaries with good ideas and the people they are helping and everyone here in my small circle of friends and family. I’ve always wanted to be a voice, and I just had to “die” to it. All the talking, blogging, song-writing, singing, wanting to do something…God definitely wanted me to lay it down and stop worshipping the desire to be useful. And laid down it was.
When all of a sudden this summer I had the opportunities fall in my lap to start connecting with these ministries that gave a skill and an income to at-risk women in three countries, I was surprised! But the timing was right. It is such a joy to just enjoy this, and let God build the house. I want to be really clear that Sister Bridge is nothing more than an idea and I needed a quick noun to say “the people that get the inventory and organize selling it to people in the U.S., connecting women to women all around the world!” You can simply go through Sister Bridge to help these women in Cambodia, Indonesia, and Swaziland…OR you can go online yourself and purchase things! (The Cambodia one, not yet, but hopefully soon we can help them make a website/shipping availability).
As I said, all we are doing is getting the inventory here and keeping track of the money getting back to the ministries. NO ONE profits from this except for the women themselves, and these organizations reaching out to them are fantastic. If you are interested in the 3 ministries and want links to their websites, just check out Facebook.com/SisterBridge. We have items to sell especially in this time of year when people are shopping for Christmas gifts; not sure what inventory we will keep after that. We can give you everything you need to have a party or just bring to your small group, bunco, girls night out, whatever. The items are gorgeous, incredibly reasonable in price (most things are under $20), and original…not to mention the point here: partnership with women who are so much like us who simply do not have the same opportunity for their needs to be met.
I pray Sister Bridge can truly be a bridge between “us” and “them”, connecting us until we really do live with equality on our minds and compassion in our hearts. This desire to make a difference, or “do something”, is a journey of our own hearts and minds changing. There is no quick leap. And living how we live, surrounded by this constant slurring of our needs and wants, sometimes it feels impossible to ever cross that bridge! I don’t believe in just “doing something”; His sheep must know His voice. If helping women in this tangible way is something you’d like to do this season, just contact me and we can help make it happen.
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Health Stuff

It is about time to change my blog picture! No more running through the slip and slide…however, I think yesterday it would have been okay, since it was at least 80 degrees! You won’t find me complaining…til January! No, I have every intention to enjoy all the seasons, even if I have the personal opinion that winter takes over too much of the year!

Anyway, just wanted to write about my pursuit of healthiness today. A long time ago, I wanted to do some nutrition info groups at my house and blog more often about the things I had learned, things that got me back into the land of the living! But honestly, January through May 2011, I felt like crud again and didn’t have much passion to share anything with anybody! Then in June, I started feeling so much better, started waking up early and going running 5 mornings a week, and just all kinds of amazing differences. So, I just wanted to briefly share encouragement of how that came to be in case anyone else needs a little hope…
First of all, Jesus. Always it’s going to be: First of all, Jesus. Surrendering my health and future to Him, going through the process of accepting whatever He chose for “my” life which is really His, was a huge part of my journey. Before I got better, I truly had peace that my life was just as valuable and full in bed as it is up and doing all these things, because my LIFE is hidden in Christ and cannot be touched by the things of the physical realm. Amen! Coming to this truth is a long journey that I am still on.
Secondly, I read a book “Tired of Being Tired” by Jesse Lynn Hanley and saw Shelly Roby at Nova Medicine in E-town. I began to live by the knowledge (not perfectly at all, but applying what I could) and taking special pharmaceutical grade supplements that Shelly saw through my blood work that I was depleted of. I did this for a year before I saw improvement, but now I am so glad I persevered! I know now that our food just does not have the nutrients in it that we need, so I eat incredibly well plus take these things. The cost is so much lower than meds I was taking…and I am on NO prescriptions now.
Third, I read (so randomly it seems but it was the hand of God) this tiny paragraph that said, “Sometimes patients who have underwent gall bladder surgery need to be cleansed of the toxins introduced to their bodies under anesthesia. They simply need to do a liver cleanse and take Kyolic garlic supplements in large quantities.” OH MY GOSH. I thought, “How amazing would that be if it worked?” I had that surgery in Africa in 2000. I did what the book said, and that is really when I started to see improvement, in about 4 weeks. I felt so well I literally began running 5k’s. I definitely still need 11 hours of sleep a night or I crash back into all the old symptoms, and I must continue in all the other therapy included in the book “Tired of Being Tired”, but everything is manageable usually if I do what I know.
For anyone tired, not sleeping well, overweight, sick often…read that book! It’s like $4 on Amazon! I have definitely learned how important it is to invest in my health, because I’m not sure how other people are, but I struggle emotionally, socially, spiritually, and mentally if my physical stuff is a wreck. If I haven’t gotten enough sleep, I make poor food choices, I’m more likely to feel depressed, I do not have perspective with my husband and kids, and then I’m an emotional mess. It’s like I can choose to live in a pit and live my life always climbing out of it…OR I can avoid the pit altogether as often as possible. Disciplines like time with God, exercise, and eating healthy don’t always feel like they fit in my “I just wanna be carefree” mood…however, by doing these things, I am much more carefree!
It’s definitely a passion of mine to share these tiny tidbits I have learned with women who are not getting to live up to their potential, so if you are reading this and want to talk about any part of it, I am available!! Just let me know, and we’ll do this together. 🙂
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Creative Counterpart by Linda Dillow

I have had this book Creative Counterpart by Linda Dillow on my shelf for many years, and have read it many times. If nothing comes of all of this moving stuff around, and we stay here in this house another decade, finding this book will have been worth the mess! I was -okay, am- finding myself in a difficult season of marriage. We are going on 11 years! Yay Us! But certain things in our relationship that are steady and constant are not very good things, and certain things that are good are not steady and constant. I bet you know what I mean.

So I needed a good dose of truth. A talk with a friend really helped me realize some things about myself and brought some perspective. It was hard to talk about it, because I know I am blessed and don’t like to be negative and complaining. But sometimes it is just good to hear myself say certain things out loud and look at them out there in the air…I needed to remember I am responsible for myself, my reactions, my heart attitude, and that I must stay in total humility and desperation before Jesus because I do not love my husband like I should, but HE DOES! Hallelujah! And when I don’t love my husband like I should it is not because of my husband, friends, it is because of me. Regardless of the details, Jesus can give me love to give, but I have to do the work to stay in that place of receiving (so that I can give).
So, this book…Yes, that’s the thing I want to share. This one paragraph says so much. Chapter One excerpt:
“Yes, there are frustrated wives, just as there are frustrated engineers, airplane pilots, and karate instructors. But the frustration does not stem from the nature of the work; rather, it comes from the boredom inevitable in any job done poorly or unimaginatively. (OUCH and HELLO!!! I like this woman. She’s a truth-teller.) A creative counterpart is more than just a helper. She is a woman who, having chosen (or having found herself in) the vocation of wife and mother, decides to learn and grow in all the areas of this role and to work as hard as if she were aiming for the presidency of a corporation.”
The fact is, I did sign up for this. No one forced me to marry, and no one forced me to marry the specific man I married. I am so lucky to have had that choice and my daughters will have that choice as well. Maybe we chose or will choose other vocations as well, but that doesn’t mean that we are not responsible for being excellent at this particular vocation of wife or mother or just woman. It’s a beautiful task. Women are amazing, and I want to keep perpetuating that good image, especially in a world where men and women alike value women by their weight, looks, or accomplishments outside the home. Hey, I think weight, looks, and accomplishments outside the home are fine and dandy…but they are not the most important thing, by far! We can, by God’s grace, be professionals at this. I am encouraged and challenged by this!